Oh, I forgot you were doing that

So people are starting to come around.  They are starting to realize I'm serious about this challenge.  Yes, it's odd to maybe just detox for 2 weeks, but I believe in small attainable goals--ones that when you reach them, encourage you to be better.  If I set my sights on something grander and fail, like my past two attempts for 1 month of sobriety, then you just remember "Oh yeah, I can't even go three days!"

It is rough though, being a bartender.  Guests, as well as staff, are coming to me going "Oh have you tried this before?  Here's a sample to taste!"  And before I know it, there's a little plastic cup on my bottom lip.  "Get that thing away you bitch!  Remember??" 

... "Maybe by the 14th day I'll remember" jokes my co-bartender.  But atleast she's trying. 

The biggest blow to my ego happened last night around 1am.   See, at the wine bar we have a Saturday night ritual of consuming a few (9) of the still opened "wines by the glass" bottles.   As the closer,  I normally join the group about two hours too late.  So that, and the 30 minute drive I have home, allow me to have about 2 glasses and roll out.  I'm kind of used to not being wasted every Saturday.  HOWEVER last night, I kicked ass and really sold almost all of the wine at the last minute.  So the boss grabs a "tasting bottle" he got from a distributor.  Uh oh.  "Is that J. Lohr Hilltop Cab?" I ask.  "Yeah, I knew you weren't going to make it more than a few days Deeisel!!" jokes the one staff member still around to enjoy the Saturday festivities. 

"Listen LADY!  I'm not drinking!  It just sucks that for the first time in almost 6 MONTHS boss is opening a bottle that isn't a wine by the glass!" 

She had no faith!  Fuck!  I was so proud of myself.  I worked hard to get done early, watched boss count the money, while him and lady drank that fabulous cab, and I just sat.  Honestly people can't believe I'm still doing this.

And while I felt like shit this morning (2pm) from a long, long Oktoberfest weekend in Belleville, tired as hell, I am still functioning better in general.  I am surprised though that I haven't lost a pound.  I guess four days isn't long, but I hope to see a little bit of a difference by next week.  I am definitely staying away from the fast food after this is over.  I did that for like 3 years at one point, I can do it again.